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Post by Lady Tatsh on Dec 6, 2008 1:09:12 GMT -6
I am at my wits end I really am Everything is frustrating me my job isn't as lucrative as I usually thought because they won't give me more hours so my great plans are near impossible to achieve now And She is... God, she's being herself... I don't think she understands how hard it is for me to be away from everything I've known. She doesn't get a single hint at all... I can't hug my sisters, I can't walk to my friends house to chill when I'm bored All I have is this room, this laptop, and her. I can't even get a ****ing hug. What's more, is her supposed friends keep encouraging me to leave her and go somehwere else to live, but no one understands how hard that is. I grew up in an abusive home Emotional, physical, verbal... it's how I grew up How I was raised. I don't know how life is without it. And now living with Her... it's almost like being in the same situation again. I'm not beat, but I feel like I can't say no to anything... and in a way I don't want to deny her anything. Why? Because I love her so damn much that I want to make her happy in any way possible But even with doing this she's not happy for long... I feel drained when I'm alone all day. It's not like when I was home when I expected Lizzy or Macy to be home in a few hours, or if I was lonely I could call Emily and Emily2 up to go to the "corner" and just hang out and be weird.... I only have Her, and knowing it's like this ... It hurts so much... She's at her desk nearby.. I can't tell her any of this... It'd only irritate her...
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Post by Yaoiboy on Dec 6, 2008 10:59:24 GMT -6
Aww, I'm sorry. I wish I could help. I know things aren't working like they should, but I hope they turn out OK. We love you.
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Post by Groks on Dec 6, 2008 11:41:05 GMT -6
Quote: I grew up in an abusive home Emotional, physical, verbal... it's how I grew up How I was raised. I don't know how life is without it. It's hard to break away from what is familiar, but sooner or later we eventually look at the life we're used to and say this is total bull****. Sorry to hear you've been down. But hey, we're manic-depressives, if you don't like one emotion, wait a while and another one will come along. ;D ;D ;D Hang in there!
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